just feeling .......

I feel The need to write in something and i dont wanna write in a book or i dunno! i guess its cause i have this to write in.... hmh

* ok its def august and things are doing wayyy better! summer has been AWWESOME!

June - june was crazy! i mean i talked to andrew on and off all that month feelings and words were going left n right! not in a bad way just werid! Erin his sister and i were reallll close n things just went odd with that too no one ever wants to talk so i never know why! Joe n i yea thats was soooo NO! i should of never thought!

                            why is it that us girls get this feeling or sense or thought when a guy that we never thought would wanna talk or ne thing get with us? hmmm i learned to like guys but u have to be smarter then them... yea i def was caught being a dum one.... and i learned that! now i kno better.

July - had the whole month off from racing! that was nice cause i didnt have to see joe or andrew since both stopped talking to me :( but at the same time i didn't care! i was more less happy and mordified by my dum actions.. i just sorta sat back and looked out the window instead of trying to look into it! FAIR!!!! it was grand Kandace n i are friends agian but at that BEST FRIENDS! i hung out with her for like the whole week we saw gretchen wilson n brad paisly and i also saw big n rich wiht CODY! fair was way awwesome drunk everynight wat can i say! but drama went down too! who would of not thought that! its like part of LIFE duh! but ne ways FAIR brought me to this:

                               Brandon <3  something sweet is in the air!f

yea BRANDON MORRIS's is his name! he grad 06 from polytech... yea a youngster but after the last guy i talked to Matt Paraish things hit me in the head NO guy is Mature at this age... and No matter wat age you go for they will treat you how they want! but somethings different with brandon..... something sooo irristable! and i'm happy! and thats all i care about!!!!!

Riding horses : they are just haaaaaaaaaaaappy! moooosefer is doing swelll! but wat bugs me is NOW everyone wants to ride HIM! NOW when they see hes not SCARY! ugh and it sorta gets on ma nervous cause everyone talked and talks so much shit on him! he might not be the best mover but hes got the best personality to him he wants to please if you kno how to ride! we are now 2nd in adult eq. and like 8th in baby green ha ha!

harness racing:  jeees its back up n going and is awwesome I Love the SPEED of a 1/2 mile track and the horses pacing.. troting.. 1 mile! it gets your adreniline pumping and your nervous a going! it makes u want the horse to win! ahh i just love my JOB!!!!!!

WAY AWWESOME

ok so yea i forget to update this thingy cause yea myspace is way over rated just like this was at one point and time! ne ways enough said ha ha

* last month... hmmm may crazyness but awwesome!

* june hmmmm met a guy name joe! hes really nice and ahh i thought it was a dream come true 2 weeks later yea i ended up getting used! wat a DICK! but really theres more to it but i'm not getting into it! if you kno you kno! o yea Andrew and i still have ups n downs i kno i kno! its cause we really are perfect for each other just can't get to that point in our heads ha h aha! oo yea justin at work treats me like a sister its soo cute! ha ha! ERIN (eeerock) andrews sister shes my NEW BEST FREIND!!!!!!

* lots of days at the beach! ahh LOVEN MA SUMMER ALREADY!!!!!!

pictures! whoot whoott!

this is jenna n me partying! shes typsy me sober wat a loser i am!

 me as a drunk ass in OC!

me n jenna! in OC wat SEXY drunk biotches we are!

how cute is jenna!

look how drunk i am ha ha!

aww we are soo pretty!

drunk night for us agian! ha ha!

we gangsta's! thats fo damn shu!!!!! ha ha haha! loven these girls!!!!!

this is erin (EEEErock!!) and me partying in the LOFT tehehehe!

that is joe in the white and tommy in the black... they just got done HOLDEN HANDS how cute!!!!

bently n me! at the beach!!!

Me and my baby sister at the foxden show! its like the best picture ever of her n ME!!!

this is the peRRRRtiest you'll ever prob get to see me! i was alll dressed up for my cousin Lauries wedding....

 and or the NEW NICKY!!! yes i got blonde in my hair!!!!! cause we all kno nicky has the biggest blonde moments ever!!!!

This will have to be continued i have soo many pictures to UPDATE you with!!!!

LOVE YOU ALLLSIES!!!!!

sadd

 yea soooooo todays been a bad day....

* first off i talked to Teddy, Andrews cousin about shit! found out my best freind is talkin behind my back and so other things! drama!

* andrew can't tell me how he feels and that he wants to be with his ex.... i knew i should of listen to everyone at work but noo i had to find out for myself! i fucken hate myself!

* and tonight during the first race there was a horrible accident! i mean HORRIBLE!!!!!! howie died :( and brandon and stevie were airlifted!!!!!!! MY PRAYERS OUR OUT TO YOU GUYS!!!! and howie i didn't kno you bu ti heard you were a great driver! live your dream!! we love you n miss you!!!!!!

its seems when ever my life is happy something horrible has to happen to me! i feel i shouldn't be living either!!!!! god please help me!

Currently Listening Fresh Horses By Garth Brooks that girl is a cowboy see related

soooo SORRY!

ok soo its been like like almost 2 months since i've updated yea alot has passed by in those two months i'll cut it short for ya! most def moved on to myspace.. i mean i've had one for a while just thought this was better and yea i meet more and talk to more on there then here but i'll still come back to chat with ya'll! its not like ne one reads these or really comments ne more BORING! but o well its a good way to talk!

well here goes april!

well back in like i guess march broke up with dave way long ago! thank god! hes was just not right for me! ne ways! on and off fights with caroline n kk! i just dont' understand but o well its all part of growing up! been hanging out with jenna lafermine way more and meeting a lot of  KEWL ppl! ahh i love those ppl! we have good time teehehehe!o yea and best of all the FOXDEN SHOW that just passed by! moose n i had troubles but i guess we all do! baby green part A flat we got 4th n 3ed and a rusual in jumping so no ribbion he was an asswhole all day! grrr! and then adult eq. there was some major competition there! i hate that shit yo! cause dude if your not riding for the pts then do some other division! and DEF DONT" RIDE IN THE MEDAL ahhh! stupid ppl! lol! ne ways we only got a 6th in our first jump course! o wellz! always other shows! whew atleast we are doing pretty good hes not the flashys and best mover in the world but to me hes my everything! and thats all that matters he got a lil bit of all my horses in him! hes ma MOOOSEAFER!!! tehehehe! well ne ways

now its may wow where has this year gone jees! spring semester over already well i have one more class for bio on monday! o yea i forgot I LOVE MY JOB o wait i've been saying that for the last 3 months haven't i! o and i've met somone! ahh hes not a track boy he says butstill he works down at the same farm as me but different barn! hes soo HOTT cute and adorable everytime we meet eyes its like theres something special that we kno its right for us! i dunno everytime i see him looking at me hes smiling and everytime we hang out its more and more fun! we arne't gonna date till we know each other and feel that its right but still i got him n hes got me! only prob is that i feel that i'm just gonna get used or somethings gonna go from right to wrong... and everyone at work tells me no dont' do it and dont' fall for it but really i just sorta wanna find out but at the sametime i want to listen to them! ahh its soo hard! ne one got ideas comment biotches! ha ha! o yea PADDOCKING GRAND i love it to death and starting after the break im gonna be FULL TIME BIOTCHES!!! that means the horses I CARE FOR will be MINE to paddock when i can no one else will get that chance me first unless i can't do it... well i'm house sitting and watching BOOKER, DIXIE and the new addition TRIXIE!!!!!! to cute!

* that girl is a cowboy* 

FOREVA EVA!!!!!

yea so its been long time since i wrote on here! i had me a myspace like back in like september just never made it clear and just really never got the hang of it or really cared for it cause for some odd reason this was soo much better but now i dunno MY MYSPACE is way better i've met sooooo MANY new people on there gals and guys! wow some hotties at that! hee hee! ne ways... just to let people kno DAVID TYLER N I DONT" GO OUT!!!!! we are just freinds! I DID BREAK IT OFF with DAVE well we both did togather at the same time mutal feelings more less i just am wayyyy to busy to have a boyfreind and i realized i wasn't into him and yea i didn't want him! ha! ne ways BRRRRRRADLY I STILLLLL LOVE YOU TO DEATH! tell susie n penny i say helllo! back to watever i was saying! i work all the time in the am's at crissmans nothin new, still going strong in class and riding mooose when i'm feeling good! lately too much stress on me! eh! but one day it will be back to normal! ( freinds) thats all i got to say about that! well last weekend was ST. PATTYS DAY! whew now that was some fun times! i was out with ma girl ERIN n LARA!!!! we went to laras, then to wawa to get mulah then to liquor store and met up with adam, mike and matt and talked to them forevva then back to wawa metup with SKIIIIBA, chad and matt lol! ok alot of matts that night lol! then we went back to laras and then over to walmart cause we wanted some GREEEEEEN BEADS!!!!!! was gonna go party with andrew lilton but eh dunno wat happen we ended up finding gay beads but it all worked out cause we got some GREEN MUGS and filled them with our LIQUOR!!!!!! then we headed over to KLIENS to party with the CAMDEN BOYS!!!!!!!!!! we drank some there, danced some there and had a good time then we got a call from dave to come to hartly to the fire house to the dance so we did which we shouldn't of cause when we got there he was drunk off his ass and was an ass to me! eh! whocares! so bradly felt horrible but i forgive me hes my booo! hee hee so then we sat in the parking lot and drank soMORE!!!!!! and then headed back to laras thats when they left to go to newark and left to meet up with ADAM POO! te hehehehehe but we just chilled cause mikey was there! and we joked around and had a good time drinking then at 2 headed me home had to get up at 7eh! saturday worked 8-11:30!!! eh i had to hold hannah for the vet! then went to farm to ride MOOSEY but eh i was like uhhhhh headache!!!!! ha ha!!! i had me like half a jack! whew! alone at that! and then i had to help give a lesson then i was like i dont' wanna ride int he wind I HATE THE WIND!!!!! so i came home and passed out and then i had to do some hmwrk got that shit done and then hmm wat else did i do oo yea then went to dinner with mom came home talked to this guy from MILLVILLE name DANNY! and then when i got off the phone  iw as gonna go party in SANDTOWN w. ma boys but i started to throwup and i was extremly sick STUPID APPLEBEES!!!! LOL! so i stayed home I"M SORRY BOYS      :( and then sunday woke up at 8 fed the horses at foxden rode mooosey on a hack with bently, ri ri and mare mare! then came home did some more hmwrk and then went to MILFORD NECK AND VISTED WITH CHRIS!!! ahh i love that boy hes SOOO HOTTTTTTT! then i headed home and ate din din with mom and bro and then at 8 went over to KELLYS!!!!!! we chilled talked and thats bout it at like 9:30 i headed home and passed out!!!! well thats it as for my weekend!!! CRAZYASS TIMES!!!!

HORSE SHOWS WITH MOOOSEY HAVE BEEN GRAND!!!!!!! Not going to cline on the 22nd saving the mulah! then foxden on the 29th of april i'm gonna DIE WITH OUT A SHOW FROM NOW TILL THEN!! AHHHHH!!! but i might end up having to go to ashley meadows to get mooose reeeeeheight for his card cause stupidness!!!! grrness!!!!

welps i'm out!!!! lata